Glory Baby by Watermark

The song below was sung at Cora's service and it really hit home with me as I had a miscarrige almost two years ago. My friend found the lyrics and sent them to me. I had the hardest time moveing on after that miscarrige and when I heard this song for the first time I realized I have another baby in heaven to meet one day!!! Now I know there many other, better reasons to be excited about going to heaven but how cool is it that my first little one will there waiting for me! Now that I think about it I have another sibling to meet as well!


Glory Baby by Watermark

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…Miss you everyday Miss you in every way
But we know there’s aday when we will hold you We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do You’ll just have heaven before we do
Sweet little babies, it’s hard tounderstand it ‘cause we’re hurting We are hurting
But there is healing And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing- That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would… Just like He said He would…

BRIDGE: I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies and what they must sound like But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…

Little Mommy Already

This is Josie's baby Deliah. HA, Jeff named her and it stuck. Josie carries this baby everywhere! She likes to rock her and read her books and below she is feeding her a ghram cracker.

Even when she plays with other toys Deliah is right there in her hand. I love it! I wasn't a baby doll girl, but I am excited to have one!

Adventures in Breastfeeding

I can't believe that Josis is almost a year old! One month to go. Here she is one day old. It has been amazing every single day. And we have been breastfeeding since day one. It has not been easy but it has been such a blessing.

I remember one day at the doctor (before baby), he asked me if I planned on breastfeeding and I honestly had not given it any thought at all. So I said sure I guess so. He recomended a class, but Jeff wouldn't go with me (to weird for him) and I didn't want to go alone so I figured I would figure it out along the way. To be honest the whole thing kinda grossed me out, and the more I read about it the more it grossed me out! I bought a hand pump because I knew I wouldn't need an expensive one, I knew I would not be working. Everything I knew anout breastfeeding I learned from the booklet that came with my pump. As I read it (and I can remember the night) I started to change my mind. The booklet said nipple ALOT!!! I can't stand that word =) Jeff laughed at me alot that night. So I went into labor having no idea if I would go for it or not. My mom did it, my mother-in-law did not. So I had opnions from both sides. After she was born I decided to try it. I would do it for a month. It was HARD!!! The first three weeks I cried alot. She wanted to eat all day (it seemed) I called the doctor who told me to pump for 24hrs and make sure I was making enough for what she needed. Well I wasn't so I almost quit. But I don't quit so I got on WedMD and found the breastfeeding support group and geared up for lots of time in front of the T.V. feeding Josie whenever she wanted to eat. Well we did it! I never bought a drop of formula. And every day it got easier and we managed to get on a schedul. My 1 month goal turned into 4 months and then 6 and then 9 and then when ever she is ready to stop. Well I was not going to let her go longer than a year and half. I need my body back.
HaHa I always looked forward to the day I was FREE!!!!! Now that day is almost here and I am SOOOOOO sad. I thought I would have to break her from it emotionally, nope she is fine. Me, I am torn up. She is growing up. She would rather drink out of my water bottle and now the milk is slowing down and I can tell out days are numbered. :( One day my mother-in-law said, well buying whole milk is alot cheaper than........ oh yeah yours was free never mind! Yup now the grocery bill will grow. But I did it, I made it! It was hard work. It was my job! Such a blessing and such a wonderful gift from God. Remember you CAN do it! It's not easy and somtimes painful (wait until thay have teeth) but push though the hard times and you will feel like you did the most amazing thing, I have never been more proud of myself!!! Plus you get to eat more and get out of lots of daily chores. Sorry Jeff I have to feed the baby =)

Now at 11 months she loves fish crackers, in fact we are totally
done with baby food too!
And she LOVES grahm crackes. I like them with
a little vanilla frosting. And now she does too. Uhoh!

What a Change of Direction

Well it looks like I am going back to school. I am all registered and everything. It is really happening!!!! Yes I have a BA and no I'm not going to get a Masters. I am going to a community college for an associates. I want to be a nurse. I have been thinking about it for a little under a year now. I am super scared and super excited. I have never ever been very good at science and math and this will be a big time challenge. So I will take this one step at a time starting with anatomy and physiology and college algebra this summer. Then onto microbiology and nutrition in the Fall and God willing I will be able to get into the actual program next Spring. The good news is I have a good friend who is a nurse and I know she will be super encouraging and my husband can help me with math. For the first time in I really feel like I am doing what God put me here to do, besides be a mom to my Teeny Tiny! So I have a few months before it begins but just knowing it is all set in motion really pumps me up.